I have grown much over the past year and a half, specifically the past 7 months. Since May of 2012 I have transformed spiritually. I am tempted to even say that I got saved sometime in the past 7 months, but I know I was saved before that. I don’t think I really embraced it up until 7 months ago though. It has been a watershed time period. For once, I actually, deeply care about living righteously. I care so much I don’t want to sin or to be the same person. I have fresh eyes that for the first time ever see myself for who I really am: I really fundamentally messed up person who doesn’t just do bad things, but who is bad, but who is also completely forgiven and embraced into God’s family. That clear vision of my sin and the blessing of being slapped in the face with the Gospel all the time has allowed me to change. Titus 2:11-12 has become my daily drumbeat, “For the grace of God has appeared, bringing salvation for all people, training us to renounce ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright, and godly lives in the present age.” I feel different. I am willing to follow Jesus now, and I don’t think I really was before.
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